all smiles are calculated

the man with a thousand faces
is still lying

his lies are leaking 
around him like pus
yet still he scrambles
placating his wife
with fictional tales

everything costs a dollar
in his world
where all smiles are calculated
and a touch means buying him a house

he is willing to upend his daughter's life
her stable home
her school
for a few lies
he tosses around in his pocket like
change

my suicide
is another link on his chain
of lies
the joy he feels at 
nearly killing someone
is past the point of forgiveness

he is still hiding
not realizing the door is open
all his secrets will bleed into his
reality
finally
i can breathe
knowing that nothing is left unsaid
knowing that this ends

​is what i live for