dark star eyes

when day is gone
night spreads its black wings
i lose myself here

my sadness
and anger
can create other worlds
portals spreading like veins

a road map
to anywhere but here
shadow man tips his hat to me
at each doorway

the horror of longing
fills the space in between
i am in and out of a trance
black pupils
pulsating universal wisdoms
 
someones dead grandma
is knitting spiders in the corner

i remember the root of my pain
my daughter isn't here
i open another vein

this portal
takes me back in time
here she is still a baby
wearing a drool bib
smiling at my dark star eyes

she recognizes my future self
my past self sits in another room
busying herself with mundane tasks
that keep her sorrow from cutting to deep

i hold my baby 
dance with her in my black robes
on beige carpet
she giggles
stares in to my eyes

i don't blink 
so she can see the secrets
of the universe
i know she will forget
we all do

i leave her with spirits to watch over her
colored orbs that glow in the night
i leave her with my past self

move on 
another vein
another place

the ghosts are my chariot
i urge them on
take me farther
show me everything
just keep moving