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"Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions"
- Edgar Cayce

sunsets on swing sets

9/27/2021

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things are so bad now
in the world
that i reminisce
about my shitty childhood

when there was no virus
and toilet paper
was  a plenty

​ summer was freedom
walking the small town streets
while my parents were
working

fear was hidden
violence and hate
were just a bad reaction
like hives or a volcano

every family watched tv together
because they had to 
and it was enough
to pretend we connected

black flies bit you on the beach
and it was just another relief
to the frigid winters

endless spaghetti
canned vegetables
and the cold slush that 
filled your cheap boots

sunsets on swing sets
the smell of hamburger
frying in a pan

cold winter days

my mother smokes a cigarette
in a department store
while i hide in some circular
rack of clothes

everything that was supposed
to be awful is beautiful now

​in the closets
of my childhood home

i found playboys and penthouses 
and my neighborhood
friends had the same experience
we talked about it 
in dead end streets
with stolen candy bars
in our pockets

life is just an ashtray overflowing
while mtv plays in the background

it is white snake
and some half naked
girl on some red sports car

and you are just a preteen
wearing fluorescent yellow

1 Comment
ATL
10/8/2021 07:52:54 pm

When I was a child back in the 70s, I thought life was not the best either. I used to live in the Philadelphia suburbs. I did not like the Philadelphia area as it felt too packed and cloistered compared to the country. I thought the people down there were all attitudes. Given the mistreatment in the public schools that feeling was reinforced. The public schools seemed bad then.I hated everything about the place. Little did I know then that youth is definitely wasted on the young, but that is life.
I then ended up living outside of Boston, MA in the 90s and 2000s and it turned out to be much worse. People in the Boston area are as bad if not worse as they are self entitled, self righteous academic snobs. The Boston suburbs are much more built up and crowded than good old Philadelphia suburbs. Now the whole world is rapidly turning into a hell. Since moving to the Boston area I have longed for my childhood in Malvern, PA.

Spring time started in mid March unlike Boston where it starts in May if your lucky. I look back and things were much simpler then. I realized I really had a good life down there as we lived in a nice house with an acre of land. The street was very quiet. I used to ride my bike down the road in the neighborhood behind us. I used to play with some kids in the neighborhood. I actually had girlfriends down there and most were really nice. I look back and the people were really not so bad compared to the Boston area today. Just 20 miles west was amish country with farms and fields. There was the Brandywine art museum with beautiful works of art in a rural location. It seems it is so much more pleasant being outside looking in.

The lesson I learned from all this is to count your blessings. Take inventory of all the good things you have now and focus on that. I find that daily prayer to God and believing in God really gives me a positive attitude of faith. God will help you focus on the good things in life.

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