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"Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions"
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this man

4/24/2021

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this man 
asleep in bed
beside me
I am going to tell you 
a secret about us
we saved each other

met at a poetry reading
it wasn't love at first sight
which is always trouble
anyway
no it wasn't like that
we were two angry loners
I was the angry feminist poet
he was the angry punk rock poet

we saved each other
seats
at poetry night
because we didn't care
about people
or being liked
and this was what 
we had in common
telling our stories
without the pretty

my horrible x boyfriend
who could barely read
came to a poetry night
where I performed
as he drunkenly shouted 
things about my body
while I read
intense poetry about
being abused by men
like him

I was mortified
we were sitting next 
to my future husband
and I didn't know
he was my future
but I kept moving closer
until our legs touched
because boyfriend
wasn't a safe guy

I had to leave early 
that night
nothing worse
than being a feminist poet
and being with
a hick Trump supporter
who doesn't understand words
and thinks women are just
holes to be fucked

said boyfriend
was quite upset with me
that night and insisted
I was going to marry Jeremy
called me all the names
no woman wants to be called
but I didn't know Jeremy
my future husband 
and said  the truth
that I barely knew him

this night
I try hard to forget
 98% sure it was the night
 A hole boyfriend gave me HPV
and possibly cervical cancer
I stared at a crack
in the ceiling glad for the 
alcohol in my system

I should have left him sooner
but I hated myself
I thought I deserved it
I had a hard time leaving
he had two daughters
that I had become attached to
because I was missing my own
daughter 

hubby and I still laugh 
because asshole boyfriend
predicted our future
wondering if 
maybe Trump lover
had the psychic touch

it is funny how things work out
opposites really don't attract
they end up in disaster

now I am with my soul mate
my shadow twin
we met each other in darkness
and now we share the light

to my shadow twin
my best friend
my husband
I am glad we found each other
​
now that the world is ending
I don't mind so much
​because we have each other

I love you more than you know


2 Comments
Leslie
4/25/2021 04:39:21 am

I love this love story! You and Jerry are beyond perfect for each other. These are the best love stories ever. I also found Neil when I wasn’t looking. I was at my lowest. My 3rd bout of cancer, no breasts, no hair, sick as ever. My husband at the time 3500 miles away having the time of his life and throwing me to the curb. After all, who wants to deal with the ugliness I presented?!? I was in VT dealing with a divorce, selling a home, cancer and attempting to not fall apart. I took the first job I was offered when I returned here from California. This is where I met my future soulmate. I wasn’t interested nor looking, I could barely function and didn’t need any added stress. Besides, what guy wants some boobless broad? Damn, she had a heart of gold but without those boobs would any guy love her again? Neil asked my coworker who the new girl was and to put in a good word for him. I laughed it off. Eventually he introduced himself to me and asked me constantly to hangout on the weekends. I never did. After all, I would need to explain! After months of asking, I figured I would tell him the truth to scare him away and leave me alone (although secretly, I thought he was the sweetest ever). I told him and he fell even harder. Who would have thought? He stood by me as a friend and was so caring and kind. Until my divorce was final and I was more on my feet, we remained friends. The best friends ever. Little did I know that Neil had a story too. He told me he had been in trouble when he was younger with cocaine and did time for it. We all have a past, we all made mistakes, we’re all imperfect messes. I had no problem with that nor his extreme honesty because even to this day, had he not told me, I wouldn’t have known. He also revealed he was struggling with alcohol (now nine years clean). Because of his struggle, he lost everything and was living in a warehouse in the loft of a business his friend owned. He was a single guy, never been married and didn’t really mind as long as he had a roof over his head and a good strong beverage. He met me and wanted more, wanted better and so did I. We were both beautiful messes that found each other and rebuilt our life together. It’s been the best and happiest 13 years of my life. So your and Jeremy’s love story and mine, are the best love stories EVER! 💗

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Leslie
4/25/2021 05:21:23 am

Jeremy not Jerry. I was typing 💬 quickly!

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